i always have exciting dreams

i woke up feeling rather heavy - and immediately bounced up out of bed coz i remembered vaguely hearing my alarm go off a long LONG time ago. overslept 50mins.

i was feeling rather lost and blur - more so than usual although those are part of my personality traits HAHA. and this sensation of being half-present, half-absent on this planet usually happens when i have really vivid dreams.

asides from the fact that i dreamt i was good friends with an SNSD girl

i also went on an escapade with a guy who got charged for murder but was innocent. i think i was trying to help absolve him of liability or something coz i believed in him. macham kdrama.

but the one scene i remember really well is when we were driving in the car. he was at the wheel. i was in the front seat. and i remembered there was a point of time when i suddenly wanted to hold his hand and we ended up doing so, rather naturally but by accident. he fidgeted, not knowing what to do. we stayed there for a few seconds. and den he told me he didn't really want to hold hands and i removed my hand apologizing, not feeling awkward at all and telling him he had really smooth hands HAHA.

but the most vivid thing wasn't what was said. it was how his hands felt. they looked skinny and long, but they were big enough to envelope mine. his palm was super smooth. his skin was cold. it was not a hand i've held before

and i could almost remember his face. it was skinny. he was fair. his eyes were quite big. and he was not my type. absolutely not. he had some sort of ah beng look. though he was gentle. it was not a face i've seen before.

i liked the feeling of holding hands quite a bit, i think!

and i just realized that the guy sounds like a vampire.