This is a story about a boy who does not have my blog address.

He was fair, slightly chubby and geeky. He was artistic, a slacker and hilarious.

He burnt a cd for my birthday and gave it to me anonymously.

He heard me snoring on the phone late one night during one of our long phone chats after he came back from using the washroom.

He never asked me out. We were never together.

He moved on, to his longstanding crush of 5 years.

We did not talk for 2 years.

And then, he returned.

And we were close for a season, following a particularly difficult period of mine.

We had common interests - shopping, singing, eating, good music. We had a common past.

He baked me cookies. He fetched me around. He thought my bag looked cool and on that exclamation, insisted on carrying it for me.

He had a beaming smile and smiley eyes that shone almost 90% of the time. He walked in shuffling manner, with drooped shoulders. He was gentle and sometimes shy.

We shared alittle more with each other about the 2 years when we didn't talk. He sheepishly but honestly revealed to me some of the things he was more ashamed of doing and thinking. I can still remember what he said. I can still remember how he said these smiling a little and looking to the ground, not wanting to really look me in the eye.

and den, he left. or i left. thank God. He isn't Christian. He's now attached.

i loved the idea of him. but he's no longer what i'm looking for.

(((PS: To my 2 friends who knows who he is... SHHHH pls don't telllll!!!! )))

Korea taught me about slim toned bods.

Hong Kong taught me about flawless skin.

The Tan Family taught me about the joy of shopping till you're dropping.

Cheryl taught me about pretty nails.

God (through FF) taught me about Christ-centredness.

im a crybaby.

Bye friends. =) HONGKONG HERE I COME!!!

k dramas

once u start, u can't stop.

TERRIBLE.

janggeunseok's smile is to die for.

my real name is kimberly potter

i've not watched a more disturbing and burdensome movie than HP7: Part 1 this year.

i think it's almost as killer as the sappy, depressing k drama i watched 1 year back within the span of 3 days where Rain sets himself up to bewitch the lady whom he thought caused his brother's vegan state but ended up falling in love with her, finding out it's not her fault, driving her mad and into depression and eventually, both dying for no rhyme or reason in each other's arms.

i really love harry potter. i never imagined it's story could be so dark on the silver screen, not even when i read the book.

amazing.

u know how i always talk nonsense right?

i'm waiting for the day when someone would unlock my mind. someone with whom my thoughts flow free and pure and deep.

i'm waiting for the day when someone would reflect me like a mirror.

waiting.

i dreamt this before watching harry potter

i had another dream last night.

i dreamt my rich friend had a bed that would drop from the ceiling.

and she kept a purple rhinoceros in her house. it chased me for latter 75% of the dream all around school, everywhere.

there were so many people, i don't know why it chose to only hunt me down.

i distinctively remember Leon's voice in the dream telling me not to turn to the right because that was where the rhino would target. i turned to the right anyway.

maybe thats why it chased after me.

i ran and ran all about school. and the school had so many hidden corridors, it was amazing.

after running for what felt like half an hour, i realized the purple rhino was probably picking my scent and hence i never seemed to loss him. i decided, i would run out of school.

by this time, the purple rhino had turned from an animal the size of 10 human beings to just a really ugly monster that was slightly bigger than the average person.

i ran out of school and tried to flag down a cab. none were stopping.

so i hopped onto the top of one like i see action stars do in blockblusters. even in my dreams, i remained down-to-earth about my physical incapabilities - i totally had difficulty holding on.

but i clinged on for dear life anyway, hoping that the speed at which the taxi was going and the intercepting wind would blow the rhino off my scent.

i woke up impressed at how much stamina and speed i had in my dream.

EUNHYUK

I may have aged but i'll never tire of you.

since one hour before i awoke today, i've been feeling rather itchy at the top left of my throat.

crap, falling ill.

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i've found the answer to my Suju Woes. I just appreciate how they can be so crazy hardworking, yet have so much fun at the same time.

nice.

suju woes

i can't decide if i'm outgrowing super junior or whether i still think they are one of the best live performers ever.

i don't want to play any longer. i would like to move along. but unfortunately, it's like a psp game without a Save button.

now now now now now i'm feelin so fly, like a g6

오늘은 부토 항국어으로 쓰 blog post 예요. 오늘은 하루종일 놀예요! 와오!! 오랜 시간이 오늘은 제미기 놀는 것 같 수 없어. 지금 부토, 저는 영국어으로 쓰예요. 항국어으로 노무 어랴워요, 쓰기 까지 미첬어. 저는 완전 noob.

i totally just typed the above paragraph on my own! took me 20mins HAHA. especially the 4th sentence - grammar is madness. who cares if nobody understands korean, yay i have an avenue to practice! (though writing it out is way easier, but i too eng ah, can afford time to do this sort of stuff.

anyway, it's been a long time since i've had so much fun in a day GOING OUT! for close friends, u know its not my thang to hang out all day, bumming around, shopping (NO SO TIRING). i cannot lah. im very easily bored and picky about company.

but today was fun. went out with tingting and sue jen, 2 lovely girls from my uni. both cute in rather different ways.

Ting is my personal Ah Lian poet.

she says random stuff like "You are like the bubbles in my Christmas Tree." and our classic joke "Do i look like an ong lai (i.e. pineapple)/ currypuff?" i usually don't understand what she means. but its amusing anyhow.

today she was telling me about alternative modeling where you pose under the table and anywhere u want with anything u like for non-commercial purposes.

she's delightfully strange. yet very pure. like her skin. fair and white - a sharp contras with her black straight hair.

knowing she was a goth queen, i wore all black today to match her. but this girl, being all "head over heels in love" dressed in a shu nu peasant, frilly type of white shirt with a modest jeans skirts and sneakers. for once i looked like a bad girl, and she the good girl.

now for my dear Jen, one of my pillars in law sch, she's a testament to the saying "the best gifts come in small packages." tiny and adorable, she was one of my Goals in law sch -

Goal #1: Must get close to Sue Jen.

as STRANGE and LESBO as that sounds - it's not leh. i just really saw how cute, bubbly and sincere she was to her friends. her energy is infectious. adorbs but wise. gorgeous but modest. she's the cream of the crop of all friends and of all girls.

we spent a lunch where they gave me a peptalk and stressed me out a bit. HAHA. but i quickly moved on frm being stressed to just drifting around. p

after that, i went on to get a drink and laze about while waiting to catch a movie with des. some disturbing jap thriller which was quite interesting and didn't quite creep me out as some other thrillers i watched - partly coz im not really putting my mind to the events that occurred (and my mind was traumatized by other things). it's just dark, i'm almost tempted to believe it's general thesis on the human heart. but cannot lah. i'll die of depression.

den after that i went on to the "highlight" of the day - meeting a bunch of friends i was not very close to. abit unwilling to... i was there to spend time with a friend who i held dear. it turned out awesome. a homecooked meal, conversations, mahjong. i felt more comfortable than i've ever been with a clique i thought i didn't click with.

it was a gd day. =)