Nameless

i want to accelerate, but i'm told to move slow.

i want to do big things, but i'm commanded to first be faithful in the small.

i want to sharpen others, but i'm awakened to my own need for sharpening myself.

i want to speak words of wisdom, but i'm reminded i need to learn it first.

it's been a sightly more tiring 3 days.

sunday was like any other sunday, except i was far more discouraged than ever.

yesterday's dinner was like any other dinner, except i received an encouraging slap to the face that i seriously needed.

today, was like any other working day, except i felt more tired den usual. something was brewing in me. it flowed into tears over dinner with my parents.

what the Lord has been painfully working me towards, is my dire need to desire, learn and master his Word. i'm desperate for wisdom. but i don't have it. and it makes me severely uncomfortable and unrested.

i'm starting.