is there any point in filling in the blanks now?

my aunty and my mom used to bring me to NYDC. i liked the cheesecakes. they were so creamy and indulgent. sickeningly so. i ate it as my comfort food. and felt uncomfortable later. once, i had more than one slice during someone's birthday, i felt so sick after eating it, i stopped going to NYDC altogether.

i got over cakes for a period of time in my life. didn't crave it. didn't want it. didn't need it.

and then i found it - ms clarity's warm chocolate cake. i started on rich cakes again. i thought of NYDC's cheesecakes. i contemplated going back to try it but arrested the thought once i recalled the sickening feeling that came with it. i thought to myself: "i'm better off now. it's chocolate, i'm eating, not cheese."

but aren't i still eating cake and dairy?