Nameless

i set up a blog again for honest thoughts and outpours. somehow, i always felt the pressure of being politically correct and spiritually-upright on a public blog. which is quite disgusting when its not genuine.

yup. so i was just reflecting on why must a christian's blog be so overly spiritual? i just wanna say what i wanna say. and unforunately, not all my thoughts are spiritual. However, something occurred to me while i was reading psalms 10. I could imagine the Papyrus in David's hands, scrawled with emotional outpours, complains, fluctuations in feelings and emotions, a little tear-stained and crumpled - an ancient blog. And he wasn't always being "upright" and spiritual. Some were really complains and rants, in a very poetic way. Of coz, he always ended of with praise to God. And i guess, thats how it should be not for the sake of being Correct and Upright, but because indeed, all the things we are suffering and struggling with are only temporal. In light of an eternal kingdom. it's meant to be a struggle and a tough one, not to the extent of being bad testimonies to others or discouraging. But as a personal reminder, hey, this life isn't that good after all.

still a long way off from that. i'm still gonna have random rants here and there for sure.=)