my termly ritual of falling ill. so glad my immune system ingeniously broke down at a time when not much is required of me. HURRAH!

no time for heartbreak.

ahhah! i finally found a redemptive quality in the male species (HAHAHAHA! no lah im not really feminist). Succinctness. i APPROVE!!

so unfortunate. i'm smack in the middle of where i don't belong. T_T

I chose to stop listening and start watching to see things clearly.

Slowly, I stop reminiscing and start having courage, never looking back.

I'm not afraid of the winter outside, but i'm afraid of the dark autumn in my heart.

I love best the warmth in my heart, like that of the sun

Alone, i switch on the balcony light and open my window to look at the starry night.

Lightly, i switch off my handphone and on my music. Absolute freedom.

Time has stopped.

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时间停了歌词
面对面的笑脸 没说的感觉
肩并肩地行走 思绪分两边
爱从一个焦点 淡成一种疏远
无声转换季节
脱下了那么美 却磨脚的鞋
经过了红地毯 怀念起草原
真心不会落叶 真爱不会飘雪
向昨天挥别 前往明天
我选择关了耳朵开了眼睛去看透
默默关了想念开了勇气不回头
我不怕外面的寒冬却怕心里有深秋
最爱胸口阳光暖和
一个人关了台灯开了小窗看星空
轻轻关了手机开了音乐很自由
是什么遥远而微弱却还隐隐闪烁着
月光融了回忆来了 时间停了

save me.

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HURRAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!! my life is now almost complete.=) (until jaebum returns)

*updated*

what i bought today! guessguess.

academic vanity!

My Materialist Checklist is fully ticked.=)

the joy of impromptu gatherings that i honestly want to go for.=)

you know, my mind and body can really tell when its a official holiday. i didn't feel like mugging today at all!

How ppl die in OT wars

there were more which died with hailstones than they whom the children of Israel slew with the sword.

The battle spread out over the whole countryside, and the forest claimed more lives that day than the sword

jialat man, the enemies. No matter how upgraded their strength, speed and agility is - no matter whether they are melee or magical or have the Orb of Fire or can call upon Rock Golems - they would still die by hailstones and forest anyway.

having human skills are not everything. i'm winning my battles.=)

my past self is such an interesting specimen. --> http://irulelalaland.blogspot.com

i sometimes feel like i rather hide my previous blog from the public, more than this one.

In this life I will stand
Through my joy and my pain
Knowing there's a greater day
There's a hope that never fails

Q: Why does life go on and on?

ANS: my life goes on and on for the future.

How?

By power and might, thats not my own.

my ego, paid me back double.

have u ever wondered, how does life keep going on and on?

i never wanted to be the boring one, but i am not happening. and thats a fact.

i always wanted to be the socially-acceptable one, but i'm not gentle, with skin as soft and white as milk. (although i fulfil the big eyes criteria, down pat... blppppllllpppllppp *charlie the unicorn tongue sound*) but i'm not.

i'm neither here. nor there.

the smallness of my life...

in comparison to?

Legend

Assets - Things that added energy

Liabilities - Things that brought me the breath of death

Owner's Equity - Owner's claim upon her status as a living being

FA - Owner's lover-enemy AKA. Financial Accounting

Happy Meal - Actual happy meal with a Butterfly Doraemon's

Girlfriend with Flipping Wings (i kid you not!)

Die. Balance sheet super unbalanced.

11 hours straight is 10 hours too many.

hellooooo stressed liao. im starting my term-ly ritual of blocking out time and cancelling activities. HIAHIAHOHOHEEEHEEEEEEEEE...

a new form of matyrdom

A celebrity...

A job where it's confirmed from the front, behind...and beside...

In front, they have fans who love them, and celebrities are smiling while watching those fans.

Behind them, there are several arrows flying at and piercing their backs.

Unintentionally, the flying arrows sometimes even pierce the fans that are in front.

On both sides, there are masses of people are watching over their front and back.

Even if their back becomes covered in blood from the arrows piercing from behind, they must smile for the sake of the fans that cheer them on and support them.

If they smile and work hard till the end, the public who's watching them on both sides will slowly move to the front.

However if they can't handle it, and if they're upsetted a little, (the public) moves to the back and even shoots arrows.

Celebrities don't know how many people are behind them, or what kind of people or what reason they have for shooting the arrows.

They're not allowed to turn around and find out either.

Because if they turn around, the fans in the front will become completely shocked when they see the arrows that pierced their back, and the moment they turn, their entire body will be struck with arrows...

No one knows what kind of people are shooting the arrows, what kind of expression they have, or what thoughts run through their minds as they shoot the arrows.

It's just that they simply enjoy the act itself, and they like it if new celebrities (especially ones with lots of past personal life) come out.

Celebrities...

They live on stage and die on the internet...a job where it's confirmed from front, back and side...

......that is a celebrity. - Eun Hyuk, Super Junior

and this comes with a story. that i really want to pen down here. and that has been bugging me for days on end.

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in others news, LKY is on twitter! HOW FUNNY!!!!!!!! --> http://twitter.com/realkuanyew

don't you think it's pretty irritating when someone asks you to "Chill" or "Chillax" or "Take a chill pill" or "Relax" (wah last one most irritating).

i think its coz ppl have been asking me to do that all my life.

and so. sometimes, i say it to others partially just to irritate them as well. kekeke.

i set up a blog again for honest thoughts and outpours. somehow, i always felt the pressure of being politically correct and spiritually-upright on a public blog. which is quite disgusting when its not genuine.

yup. so i was just reflecting on why must a christian's blog be so overly spiritual? i just wanna say what i wanna say. and unforunately, not all my thoughts are spiritual. However, something occurred to me while i was reading psalms 10. I could imagine the Papyrus in David's hands, scrawled with emotional outpours, complains, fluctuations in feelings and emotions, a little tear-stained and crumpled - an ancient blog. And he wasn't always being "upright" and spiritual. Some were really complains and rants, in a very poetic way. Of coz, he always ended of with praise to God. And i guess, thats how it should be not for the sake of being Correct and Upright, but because indeed, all the things we are suffering and struggling with are only temporal. In light of an eternal kingdom. it's meant to be a struggle and a tough one, not to the extent of being bad testimonies to others or discouraging. But as a personal reminder, hey, this life isn't that good after all.

still a long way off from that. i'm still gonna have random rants here and there for sure.=)

noisenoisenoise. the noisier it is, the hollower the insides.

perhaps it's draining me when i'm already so tired?=)

u gotta stop it, it's quite annoying.