Reconciliation

"Ok, Team A, change over."

It was my turn to take the stage. I grabbed my notes and walked from my seat to the raised platform infront. And sat down across my opponent.

And i said something silly.

I saw my tutor and my classmates laugh at me.

And i saw my opponent smile a big wide smile at me. Deep dimples formed in his cheeks. His eyes twinkling. He was amused. He didn't tsk me or shoot an elitist death stare.

And i smiled sheepishly back and laugh out loud.

3 years ago, i would never have imagined me, sitting across him, laughing.

I'm no longer quite so sure he's a Bad Boy.

what more can we do

my doorbell rings.

a middle-aged man in a red checkered shirt that looks like a table cloth, with a brown shopping bag, stands at the door.

"errhhh... hello. i'm selling air freshener. very good...."

"sorry, we don't use these kind of things."

"it's very very good. can use in your house, your car, for your clothes... you see ah... i have stroke."

he lifts up his limp right arm that looks rubbery and lifeless.

i see a train of saliva drip from his lips onto my door mat.

"ok wait ah." i said.

i walked to my room. and i thought to myself. what if this guy is a cheat? can't he get some other job?

and then i decided in an instance, i'll rather be swindled than risk not supporting what could be his only viable and foreseeable means of livelihood.

and so i bought 2 air fresheners for $5 each which i would never use. (i hate air fresheners, esp lemon, and in cars.)

but then it got me thinking. was what i did the best i could do for him?

pardon my language but.... i am working my ass off.

yet, i'm having the time of my life.=)

i have a semi-serious bout of Monday Blues.

I wonder if it's because i talked to Bad Boy.

I wonder if it's because for no rhyme or reason, Weird Dude just doesn't like me. And expressed it quite explicitly today.

I wonder if it's because i was insulted by you without you even knowing it.

I wonder if it's because I have quite abit of work to do.

I need an escape tonight. Lord?

guys. i'm through with Mystery.

it's not easy... to be Nameless. a captial "I" gets in the way.

you know, at the end of it all, i do think the ppl i've met in smu law are quite nice.

they can be a little clique-ish, but... they are willing to accept the PMS-y peeps (a dude, no less) and certain strange annoying people.

they can be a little bitchy, but... thats only a small grp. and even some in that small grp are so much more than bitchy people. and they can be very lovely.

some of them look quite good, but... that doesn't mean they are bitchy.

some are really serious and intense when in class, but... they can be such a delightful child out of it.

i wish... i so so wish. i had given them... given myself a chance, back in year 1.

law is not and will never be on my top 20 favourites list. but the overall experience wasn't so bad after all.=)

Hello peeps. i'm back! and i would love to say i'm back a changed girl. BUT im slowly sinking back into my old mundane, nua days. terrible terrible.

fortunately today is a saturday. And my saturdays and sundays are always holy days because of the number of church activities going on HAHA. so i'm fuelled, excited and ready to go. hopefully this carries out on normal weekdays.

I HAVE SO MANY PPL TO CATCH UP WITH. I MISS U GUYS LOADS. ANDERS. JOYCE. LOUELLE. AMANDA. DESIREE. DAWN. GODMA. MELISSA. BECKS. ADORA. MYRA. LINDY. YOU. YOU. AND YOU.

i was such a pretty child in my early uni days.

sigh.

I'M BACK FROM AUSSIE!=D

gday mate

if i haven;t said it, and u have no idea yet...

I'm in Australia.

For a month.

And i will NOT be blogging here during this time (most probably).

But i'll be blogging here - http://chumchukimchi.blogspot.com/ .

TOODLES.