gday mate

if i haven;t said it, and u have no idea yet...

I'm in Australia.

For a month.

And i will NOT be blogging here during this time (most probably).

But i'll be blogging here - http://chumchukimchi.blogspot.com/ .

TOODLES.

A Supernatural Love

It’s been a while since I’ve heard the Lord’s whisper.

It came through vividly on Monday, though I’m sure there were incidences leading up to it…

About, redemption. All souls can be redeemed, no matter how terrible that soul is, no matter how long it takes. All souls can be redeemed.

I was chatting with Chris on Monday about my involvement in youth ministry when it first started and I asked her a very poignant question: “Did you ever give up on me, Chris?”

“Yes.” she answered rather straight-forwardly. She was grinning. But Chris always grins.

“I thought you were CMI. I even talked to Pastor about it. But he didn’t reply me. And so I thought, hmm… ya, I shall not give up on her. So, I learnt not to give up so easily on people.”

At night, I met a good friend I have great respect for and yet, who I once thought was impossible to befriend. She shared a little about how she terrible she used to be before and it was shocking how huge a transformation she has actually underwent. Because before me, I saw a holy woman of the Lord who was a great example and role model for me. Not the little brat she had described herself to be a few years ago.

And the whispers continue.

A million of thoughts flooded my head, or rather, a million of names flooded my head. A youth who didn’t seem to bother being a good testimony. Party animal youths. Apathetic youths. “Smoky” youths and friends.

They can all be saved. When God personally beckons and calls, it is irresistible.

And then, I felt tears well up as I realized how God had personally called me. Me, the most wretched of all people. A girl who cares only for her own image and popularity. A girl who assumes the world revolves around her. A girl who uses people, even the people who love her and whom she loves. A girl who was so self-absorbed, she was going out of her mind. A girl with a horrible personality. A girl who hated herself. A terrible girl. A girl like me.

Yet my God loves me so. He has called me in His own good timing to start the journey of being made anew. Like a magic trick, he is turning my heart of stone into a heart of flesh. He is transforming my self-centered mind into a mind that actually has place to remember names and things that have no direct bearing on my own well-being. I never found it possible to spend time with people just hearing them out (unless I liked them enough to make them want to like me by doing so). Yet now, I’m learning to. I never found it realistic to be happy in youth ministry. Yet now, I am.

I’ve been thinking about my attitudes towards my friends… A judgmental spirit often possesses my thoughts, mentally shutting the door of salvation to this group of people whom I have labeled as immature, blind and hopeless in my most honest of moments.

Yet now I realize, I am no different from them. And God can redeem them as well. And I want to be His chosen channel to shout this out to them – to shout out “God loves you very much and you’re absolutely precious to Him! Won’t you consider giving your time and your attention to Him? Won’t you consider building a relationship with Him?”

Be gone judgmental spirit.

I’ve been enjoying my time so much with some of the people I never once could enjoy myself with because I just couldn’t understand them. I still can’t understand them. Sometimes, I even get irritated with them or have conflicts with them. And yet, I now love them. It’s a supernatural love working in me. A love I have received, I now can give.

I love you, my Lord and my Saviour. Won’t you allow Him to love you too?

my biggest achievements in life

1. Choreographing my jc couplr dance.

2. Digging out the innards of a chicken.

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while searching for BS material, i came across the side love story for Boys Over Flowers in written form. And i read the whole thing.

http://dangermousie.livejournal.com/1881473.html

I think the things i come across while prepping BS are quite awesome. I should start posting it up

i think my secret ambition is to be a super hero

about a week and a half ago, i dreamt i was in pyongyang on a school trip.

My team and i (who were strangely the girls from my church youth) were staying in a bare room with just plain floor mattresses in a building that looked very much like the Ho Chi Minh Courts (minus the garish yellow colour).

Apparently, some great injustice was being committed within the labyrinths of this mysterious government building we were being housed in and it was up to us to save the day.

We decided to wait till late at night before we attempted going out and infiltrating the system. There was a curfew in Pyongyang and we were not allowed out after night fall. (im amazed at how accurate the facts in my dreams are) We did not have weapons.

But then again, the Wise Man had told us: "You have all the weapons you need. Now fight."

So we heeded. Somehow, i knew how to engage in combat in my dreams, i think. however, even in my dream, i remained hesitant over my abilities and aware that i had never fought before. i was scared like mad.

And so, we snuck out. And crap, we bumped into a government official.

But no worries, he was someone we had talked to before. so we invited him for a drink. he got drunk. we left him on the mattress in our room and continued our quest.

i never saw what we were looking for. i woke up before that. and before i could put my combat skills to good use.

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about a week back, i dreamt that 3 of the coolest new friends i've made formed a team. We had the relaxed and laidback attitude of friends so close and individual so sure of themselves. Im not sure what type of team we were but i just knew we were a team that helped out with rescue missions. we were not rookies.

our next mission was a sea mission. i think it was to kill a mermaid or something. we did it successfully.

her mother/boss/guardian was not pleased. her guardian was a very powerful witch. and she came to seek revenge.

so while my friends and i were hanging out in our rather posh but slightly old looking headquarters, she made her appearance.

i forgot how she appeared. but all 4 of us knew she was here. and after us. so we went out to confront her.

but we underestimated her power. and for some reason, she chose to come after me. my friends chased behind her, trying to save me, but i soon lost sight of them.

So i ran for dear life, with my wand in hand. once again, i was well aware that i could not recall any spells and that i hardly knew how to use the wand or do magic. my relaxed attitude completely dissipated when i became the hunted and my fear grew as i ran. using my wand and my zilch knowledge of magic to out run the witch.

i'm think i created fire at some point of time. i'm very sure i flew, at some point of time, hoping to lose her. (wingardium leviosa, perhaps?)

and den i awoke, again.

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i love my dreams so much.

i punched myself in the tummy while trying to open something up. very pain. =(

why did dbsk break up. why why why.

4 ppl walk on a dark, lonely road. Down hill.

A shadow fleets pass the street lamp.

Jeff: "MOTH!"

Desiree: "ehh... don't say..."

Kim: "HAHA! Scare you. I'll make the sound of moths flying. *shhhhhh*"

Jeff makes a butterfly with his hands and goes close to Des and says: "Fluffer. Fluffer. Fluff fluff."

Hilarious like mad, when you watch him doing it.

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An sms came in 10 mins ago from my mommy thanking me for my mother's day gift.

My mom is currently in the room next to mine. Apparently, she's practising her sms-ing skills.

Im sitting now in a cafe with a friend, reading a book. And i can barely keep my eyes open for 10mins. Super lao ya pok.

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MM Lee just always speaks more sense.


Can we afford the risk of a messier, more idealistic and less experienced leadership just for the sake of giving the ruling party a wake-up call?