i can't believe how self-centred i've been the past few days. and to think that my new year resolution is a hefty:

"Less of Self, More of God and Others"

pfft.

i've been blogging quite a bit. and today, while i tried to take a nap, i actually contemplated talking out loud to my carebear who lies loyally by my pillow.

Afterall my carebear would just sit there and listen, flashing me a constant serene smile and gazing with bright attentive eyes.

what more, it's my fave colour. no one else has purple skin (except my unicorn).

im not gonna stop my rant

only 1 out of my 8 sems in smu, did i not hate sch.

therefore, i hate sch.

sharpening.

i just thought to myself today,

"If my youth were to follow me around for one day and see how i behave, omo, i'll look terrible."

esp if they could hear my thoughts.

and read my body language.

thankfully, there is no such Superyouth.

i worried so much over the sudden restructuring of my presentation that i didn't slp well last night.

i was so stressed that i dreamt about sleeping and forcing myself to wake up coz it was time. and when i forced myself to wake up in the dream, i really woke up instead with a blinding headache. it was early morning.

so here i am, for the 5th day in a row, at home, resting. coz my stomach is spasming and my brain is spiralling downwards.

and the silly thing is, it's not even a presentation worth worrying over. i'm just disinterested. intimidated. upset that i didn't get the structure right the first time round.

and im just ungrateful and lacking in stewardship.

right now. im very angsty.

i don't have a legal mind.

neither do i have the legal interest.

i do not care about distribution of incomes and achieving efficiency.

neither do i care about how troublesome ppl create trouble and enter a complex process made complicated by complicated ppl to reach a simple conclusion (guilty or not guilty)

i don't care about legal theory.

i don't care about legal practice.

so why am i here? WHYYY WHYYYYYYY

can a person die from being humbled? coz the humbling process is sometimes so painful, i could just die.

God: In your hard times, that's when you become conscious of the need to lean on me.

Kim: God, why do you make me less kind, warm, loving and beautiful than other girls?

God: For in your weakness, I am strong.

stupefy

theres an Hermione Granger in my Work and Family class.

every monday is a good day.

because it's Music Monday.

i'm the worst type around.

yet my Lord loves me.=)

mummy-daughter bonding

2 ladies, staring at one mac screen in a pitch-black room.

"mummy! look at what he is wearing! EEEEE!"

"EEEE!" we both exclaim.

"How can he dare coming out of the house dressed like that?" mummy complains.

we burst out into giggles.