Help,

i have another thought in my head. And it's driving me nuts!

i've only let it out to 2 ppl. and letting it out has not relieved me of the thought, as i thought it would.

helphelphelp.

i pity the fool.

i see u driving down town with the girl i love,

and i'm like, forget you. and forget her too.

hilarious/intriguing findings from my dating survey

How would you approach someone you're interested in?

"I'm a shy guy. True story." (i bet this is my godbrother)

"Playing Hard to Get + Observing Her = Higher Probability of Getting Her + Making Sure I Really Like Her" (Oh so wise!)

"Brush against them see whether they brush back. Then bring him to meet Kim and ask Kim's opinion." (i bet this is my alien friend)

If you're a girl, what does the typical Singapore girl look for in a guy (i.e. with the intention to enter into a serious relationship)? Please rank from 1 to 5, 1 being the MOST IMPORTANT.

"Got Car" (my exact thoughts.... NO LAH KIDDING)

Is there any difference between what Singapore girls and guys look for as compared to girls and guy from other countries?

"Singapore guys rank intelligence lower than obedience. i.e. we don't care if our mate is dumb." (I OUTRIGHT REJECT THIS KIND OF GUYS EWEWEW)

"guys think with the wrong head" (teeheeheee!!)

"Burmese like domesticated girls with salaries not exceeding theirs" (random much?)

"girls will always be girls. lol" (ehh?)

"angmohs look for sex." (wah so straight forward)

scared and shaken

Romans 1: 18 - 2: 16

there will be no second chances, not even for those who have never heard the gospel before.

i like to say things as it is.

and so, if i say something mean, the primary problem isn't what i said. (thats a secondary issue of being wise in HOW and WHAT i say). The primary problem is what i thought in the deepest recesses of my heart and the attitudes therein that i needed to correct.

i really like to say things as it is, so when my Cute Friend wisely challenged me to keep my mouth shut on a certain matter, i did so with much difficulty and surrender.

i really appreciate honesty, but sometimes i can't take it if its too brutal.

i'll love to always be honest, but sometimes i'm too afraid to be.

but i'm moving towards it.

Infidelity is a disaster.

There was once a time, when i thought it was the biggest disaster on planet earth. Worse than natural disasters.

Well, not anymore, having been traumatized by Japan's tsunami.

But i still think infidelity is pretty bad.

The self-centredness core of the human soul is most evident in Infidelity. You're ripping apart the heart of someone whom you love or at least once claimed to love enough to make a pledge to live for a lifetime.

I think learning how marriage is a a mirror image of the Trinity made the idea of infidelity even more grotesque.

You know, i'm really tempted to hate guys who cheat. But it's just my reflex mechanism. There are also ladies who cheat. But ladies who have their husbands cheating on them... my goodness, i feel their pain more profoundly. Because i personally know and understand the nature of a woman's heart.

SMIRK

one smirk is enough to kill.

anyway, please click here.

teehee.

wahlao, i have a friend (or rather, an acquaintance) who has filmed a Music Video before??? JEALOUS, MUCH????

(and im not talking about some rich kid who PAID to have a music video made for them)

i can't do my french project in public. =(

when i google What do French Girls look for in a Guy, i come up with all sorts of embarassing website titles.

I scared ppl behind me see.

T is for Kim Soo Hyun!

this guy is NOT a singer. tell me which nonsinger can sing better than some singers??????????

aigoo, so eye-dil. eye-dil to watch and gush over, at least!

it's neil sedaka day!

it looked like it was going to rain. and so instead of running the errands i wanted to, i went to coffee bean.

i saw down with my hazelnut latte and pored over my hanja.

it started to pour.

neil sedaka started to sing.

(P.S.: sorry to spoil the mood but sedaka sounds like sadako.)

refinery

another day of surrender. another day of saying byebye.

i'm a fighter. i fight till i'm exhausted. i fight even if i say im no longer fighting. i fight as long as i want it.

my God, my God, thank You for being patient with me. you hold me in your loving arms even as i fight with all my might each time. you send me angels to encourage me. you speak words of love and truth to me again and again.

it took so much work and time for my heart to turn towards you. and the pace of turning is still so slow.

do i really have to surrender this daily? can't you just WHAMBAM take it away immediately?

"My grace is sufficient for you."

let me learn the hard truth of enjoying the process of learning how to trust and rest in you for all things.

starting my personal journal is the best thing i've ever done for myself.

better than allowing myself a Magnum/gong cha/hour on youtube/trip to the arcade.

way better.

i admit, i'm like a child sometimes

i'm not grouchy at all. but i think i sound grouchy.

i'm not grouchy at all. but i think i look grouchy.

i think i think too much and too "off" when i'm tired. time to crash!

1 hour chat on phone for project, haiyorh.

me have no manson mun

but me have Ha Rang aka Baby Taeyang.

it's not that he's exceedingly cute. but i love the idea how he's a total mini-me!

i've got a feeling, that tonight's gonna be a good night

i wrote my conclusion before the whole essay. shiok.





JUST TOO CUTE! i'll love to have a mini-me too!!

my heart is Yours, Lord

“To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong,”

but...

"...since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning the shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."

what should i do?

dream #5

i was on the run from some Scary Person. I don't think i did something guilt-inducing since i don't remember feeling guilty in my dream, but the Scary Person definitely wanted something from me and to do something terrible to me.

So i ran away from him, far far away. i stayed indoors all day - i think it was on a big campus in a hostel room - fearful of getting caught by him. when i went out once in a blue moon, i was cautious.

throughout, i felt lost and floaty. like i no longer belonged in this world.

but time went on, and he never came to seek me out. so i started to go out again, but wearing hoods and the like.

one day, i was out with my friends at an outdoors cafe. discussing plans on what to do and where to meet later.

and then, i saw them. 2 greasy ahbengs sitting at the table to my diagonal-left in front. on their table, was my photo with a price pegged to it.

i lowered my voice, told my friends they were there and said i'll meet them later. i swung my sling bag around to my back and RAN. down the stairs into the basement of what looked like a shopping centre. it must have been morning because the shops were still closed.

as i ran, i saw an exit to the floor above on my left side. and horror of horrors, the 2 bounty hunters were coming down out of it. i slowed my pace. pulled down my hood. there was no where to hide. no pillars. no other exits.

the first one looked to his left and ran onwards. the second followed suit. for some reason, the did not see me.

i ran to an unknown room at the back of the building which somebody had personally shown me when i was touring the campus.

the room contained 3 disabled old men. who needed especial and personal care from the nurse. they were of different races. one was bed ridden. the other 2 just looked stoned. none of them reacted when i burst in. merely staring into space.

the room seemed to come right out of a sepia photo. everything was so brown. other than 3 beds, there were only 2 cupboards. as i fumbled with the cupboard furthest from the door, i saw the 2 bounty hunters run pass the window of the room. i freezed. once again, they didn't see me.

i crawled into the cupboard which was almost too tiny to fit me. and before i could close the door, a pretty blonde nurse came to ask me what i was doing.

i told her i was finding a place to hide. she asked me to hide in the other cupboard, which was far too small for me.

i explained my situation further to her and suddenly, she made a move to leave the room, saying she'll report on me if i didn't leave the room. i fell on my knees are begged her not to. my heart was racing, i was so scared,

so scared and frightened, that i was shaken awake in the middle of the night.

cheryl and i were the originators of this idea.

my class mate also copy me lorh.

i feel grouchy spells coming onto me.

help, someone

i don't like 1 corinthians 7. =(

i've finally listed out the characteristics of my ideal guy!!

He must be a C-H-I-T C-H-I-A-T. (say it out loud. it sounds like Joo Chiat with an angmoh accent right??????? HOW COOL IS THAT. CHIT CHIAT.)

anyway, i actually only thought of the first 4 alphabets myself. but upon asking my very brilliant cute little friend in school to guess what C-H-I-T stand for, she gave me 3 more new adjectives that i totally want in a guy too. HAHAHA.

in the end, she concluded that i "everything also want." which is not true lorh.

Btw, to correct all skewed assumptions of me being a Princess/Party Girl/Boyfriend Despo, "H" does not stand for Hot, Hunky or Handsome.

It stands for Holy. *bright smile*

or at least, the 2nd "H" does. My cute friend threatened to disown me if i didn't agree with her that Holiness was a necessary quality.

OF COURSE IT IS. it's like so obvious that i don't even need to say HELLO.

this is so fun. talking about boys. relationships. i love being single. only when ur single den can u talk about these things dreamily and longingly. (hopefully i'm still not single by the time i'm 33. Justin's play scared me to bits.)

the old has gone, the new has come

official new eye candy!

he's my age. i'm not a paedophile!

(this is not actually my standard for guys, ok. HAHA)

ILU KIM SOO HYUN!!!

i'm thinking of getting down to writing my 2nd love letter.

it's for someone i hardly talk to.

Feeling like im on the way to burning out. I really really need an extended time with the Lord.

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should i invest in

instead of ?

i'm buying the less gorgeous thing? no way? i really want it.=(

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Rihanna's tweet was censored for your benefit.

Time to go out and sup and forget my increasing workload and my aching bones.

who says korean songs are not meaningful

Goose's Dream

I have a dream,
Even if I'm thrown away or ripped to shreds
Deep in my heart
I have a dream as precious as gem

If by chance, without a reason,
Somebody ridicules me behind my back
I should be patient
I would wait just for that day.

I am always worried,
That empty dreams are like poison.
That the world is like a book with a fixed ending
That it is a reality which cannot be turned back.

Yes I have a dream.
I believe in that dream
Look at me
Standing in front of that cold wall called fate
I can firmly face it

One day I will go over that wall
And be able to fly
As high as the sky
This heavy thing called life can�t tie me down
At the end of my life, on the other day that I can smile, let�s be together