this is the first time i've preferred the bad guys so much over the good guys. partly coz of their acting. but also coz they are just so much cooler than the good guys - their demeanour, style and character plots.

i prefer this.

North Korean head of secret agency

over this.

Discarded south korean agent who is being hunted by 20485 countries but never seems to die.

like seriously. why do ppl like brown-coloured plastic stomaches so much? i like his character. a lil evil. but he doesn't have the know-it-all, experienced swagger of Mr North Korean. though clearly Mr. Plastic Stomach is actually way more admirable than Mr North Korean.

and this.

North Korean pawn who helps the guy she is suppose to assassinate.

over this.

Team Leader of some secret agency.

i see her picture i already yawn. BORING. Ms Short-Hair who is hardly feminine and never wears skirts is so much cooler! and tragic. love it love it!

pity im more like Ms Boring in personality. if not i would really cut my hair like Ms Leather Jacket and work that scowl.

seriously, this is like, SO ENGAGING! i love the northkorean south korean merger theme! its SO AWESOME!

pretty!

crap. my high-flyer days are over.

39 reasons why i'm secretly a boy

i'm really good at tunnelling my vision.

(this is great fun, coming up with reasons to be a boy!^^)

heartless. heartless.

so be it.

liking hugs doesn't mean i'm emo.

"i'm so heartless, mama."

"you're not heartless. you just tend to be very logical and rational. some stability is needed you know? if everyone emo, then how?"

"but i'm not very stable now."

"coz you're forcing yourself to be unstable."

i am only human.

i think i wanna change my other half's name from Katherine to Kean.

can you put a name to a face?

Estella - fake eyelashes. coloured contact lenses. pursed lips (imagine dawn yang)

Nancy - plain jane pretty. long skirts. (imagine mandy moore in a walk to remember)

i know im suppose to be anti-stereotype. but isn't this a fun social experiment.

and hence, i conclude. some ppl just have plainly wrong names. i wonder what my real name should be.

Now, in typical justin-hui fashion --> While i was contemplating on this social experiment on the way to the toilet and back, i returned to the Tings Tings' Thats Not My Name.What are the odds. (Katherine: eh... actually not very high.)

ex-love of my life.

pls don't disband.

SUPERSHOW!!!!

gt slp to study tml kthxbye.

kimberlite is a volcanic rock.

getting used to being taken as a fool.

"a fool in law school, is worse then being nothing. you are of negative value. a bane to society."

no one seriously. SERIOUSLY. seems to understand how tough my course is.

and i never ever say it. coz everyone's course is tough for them.

but mine is tough. real tough. i'm just asking for understanding. Not for "oh but everyone's course is tough *nodnod* mine too you know?"

it's me. my problem i'm talking about. not yours.

jonghyun passed the swineflu to onew so onew's not performing and jonghyun is currently singing out of tune (so rare) coz he's sick and lee teuk stepped into the shoes of onew just like his fellow kind member of suju, yesung did 2 days before, but only that lee teuk dances way better and sings marginally worse.

not that anyone understood that still. still self-conversing.

tonight, katherine is excited about going to her friend's party.

today, katherine went to watch a movie in the afternoon IMPROMPTU, W/O PLANNING, and felt peaceful throughout.

kimberly, is silent, for one day.

JONGHYUN IS DOWN WITH SWINE FLU AND SHINEE IS PROMOTING AS 4 MEMBERS BUT SURPRISE SURPRISE YESUNG FROM SUJU APPEARED IN JONGHYUN'S PLACE.

amaaazzzziiiiiiiiinnnnnnggggggggggggggggg. not that any of u just understood that. thats why, this blog is called - Self-Conversing.

ENOUGH WITH THE PARTIES I TELL YOU!

i feel quite happy, instead of sad, that my friend didn't invite me for her party YAYNESS.

(don't care if i sound evil. i'll just say it's my other half speaking. it's so useful to have a split personality.)

-15 mins later-

It dawned on me - the importance of Birthdays. It's the celebration of your existence. Cool. Then why not have a small dinner. Why have a party. (i know i had one too. but i rather have had a dinner now that i think of it. I was "peer-pressured" into celebrating my 21st "with a bang". Thank God i didn't go as far as to get a chalet.)

(Also. Surprise parties are EXEMPTED. those are fun. meaningful. nice. succinct. sweet.)

my teeth is killing me.=( i think this is the tightest my braces have ever went (since the 1st time that is).

now this blog entry is gonna suddenly, sporadically switch from the topic of teeth to 2 specific girl-women. one, i've blogged about before. one i have not.

Girl #1

my first impression of her was - Impressive. It was not a bad impression. More like an intimidating one. I immediately knew she and i would not have the same kind of friends. She had been a leader in many organizations and events. Has a nice, low voice. loves high-end stuff. intelligent. great clothes.great figure. great hair. mole. commands respect and attention.

all the above i knew before i knew the next thing about her - So down-to-earth and comfortable. she's everything but she never says it. she knows it. and im sure she's proud of it. but i've never seen someone handle the fact of their achievements so well. with humility (and u can't fake it coz it'll show in your actions and words) yet without being overhumble. she's comfortable. confident.

and we talk. and she likes me. amazing.

Girl #2

never met a more interesting christian girl den her. totally assertive. constantly on the brink of offending someone (or so her friends and her say, but i don't really feel so) slave-driver. over-anxious and frenetic (ya worse den me). can do 20 over drafts for her essays from scratch. usually doing her work. doesn't spend huge amounts of time with ppl. often not present for events and if she is, she'll expressly actively push everyone to hurry up.

FINALLY. i see a living example of Not All Christians Come In The Same Packaging. and she's a real follower i tell u. so fired up and passionate about the word and spreading it. amazing lah she. i usually ask guys for advice in certain matters that i want answers for coz they are more logical, less emo. But this girl, i will definitely go to for advice.

apparently. being guyish, achievements-motivated and workish doesn't mean i'm a man. i've been wanting to be a boy for a few weeks now. but i think i've finally stopped. thank God. and i started being interested in guys again. i've actually begun noticing a few of them. YAY! back to normal.

ARGHHHARGGGHHHARGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! tooth brush dropped on kitchen floor TWICE!!!! ARGGGHHHHH!!!! cannot tahan. i might just have to buy a new toothbrush.

i got another secret to tell.

i use abbreviations for my notes. And there's a particular concept called Forum Mandatory Laws. I feel like chuckling everytime i write FML.

tsktsktsk. so childish. (the other half of me speaks) my name is Katherine. nice to meetchu.